With the tightened grip around her waist, Eirian relaxed a little and stayed silent while he spoke, her head turned back towards the couch. He was wrong..
"Of course I would have been worried, Shoichi, I was worried even when I thought you were going to school. But I wouldn’t have stopped you… In fact, I would have been happy for you, had you told me the truth. I’m glad you found others like you.. ecstatic, really." The demoness turned her head back towards his and angled her body backwards, to where she was staring into her lover’s eyes.
"I’m pissed you felt the need to lie to me. Why exactly did you? You could have told me. I would’ve understood… More than you expected of me, apparently."
It wasn’t the fact that he put himself in danger by going there, it was the fact that he lied to her. She hated nothing more than lying; she had been lied to more times than she could count, and it hurt worse than any other betrayal.
He had no real answer as to why he lied. Really it was because if he’d told her the truth then he would have had to tell his parents and brother the truth as well. It’d been River that’d worried him the most had he told the honest truth. He hadn’t wanted to hurt the raven’s feelings. Shoichi had already seen how angry the other had seemed when he simply mentioned he was going away— let alone to be with other angels? River would accuse him of abandoning his family…
Shoichi pinched the bridge of his nose and smoothed a hand over her stomach absentmindedly.
"I didn’t want anyone to know that’d I’d be fighting every day. Or that I felt so lost that I’d searched out a place to fit in. I didn’t want anyone to know of my insecurities towards being what I am… I’m the strongest in the family, I can’t let my petty self consciousness fuck that image up." He pushed his bangs into his black and red eyes.
"I’ve never lied before in my life. It ate at me everyday…"